Thursday, January 14, 2010
beauty from inside.
♥ 5:15 AM
Really felt like a double faced person.
I really feel like slapping myself, killing myself etc.
Like .. what's up with me now? I feel like ... i'm a total different person.
Like the high-ness in me, the passion in me, and etc, is still there, but ...
because of one person, because of being insulted, i got to pissed.
Not because I care, but I'm a girl, in front of the whole chinese class with different people from different class, he actually could just insult me. & each time seeing him, he could just laugh & walk away, is about the pride, love for oneself.
I have very high confidence level of myself, i really love myself and etc.
I really thank God for giving me such beautiful face, but ... i don't know how to say, is just ...
Just because of one person, could actually just like got so pissed.
Is seriously just first time, nobody could got me that PISSED.
& for the very first time in many many years, i could just say out 12452345623456 vuglarities to express my anger.
I believe this is the very first time Char sees me very differently in church & in school.
I feel so muti face, in church and in school. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
I just don't understand myself. & just because of one person, i got so pissed off with Char too.
Sorry Char. I know you won't understand, but i do.
Even the prettiest or handsome-est girl/girl in the world, i still think that beauty is really from the bottom of your heart.
But i still don't understand, why could someone just because out of fun, insult someone.
Like, won't the person have any feelings? Like rather saddistic.
But I'm just pissed, i'm not sad or anything, like ... who cares about that guy?
I just feel pissed because i think that he's just so childish. & he just hit the jackpot in making me angry.
YA, SO WHAT I'M FAT? Is me what, what does it got to do with anybody?
At least I got the height, & i'm ain't overweight. Furthermore, I'm far from it.
At least I'm happy with myself, why should I care?
I think blogging my feelings out feels so much better. i was feeling so ...
IRRITATED THE WHOLE DAY. But i'm fine now, .
PLUS, I HATE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR , THERE'S EITHER IMPRESSION OR SYF.
I WANT TO GO CHURCH, i feel something so missing when i have to go band on saturday.
It feels like ... empty. When now I'm coping well with my studies, band just had to turn up and
screw my studies and life.
i feel so much better now. i'm sorry if I'm blabbering too much.
& REALLY WANNA SAY,
THANK YOU GISELLE & HUIWEN FOR COMPANYING ME TODAY.
(:
& officially my phone spoilt again.
Sorry to ruin Sony Errison's business but,
DON'T BUY SONY ERRISION, IT'S SERIOUSLY LOUSY.
yeah, .
I have learn something;
Whatever your pain, there will always be sunshine after rain.
perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall,
But God is always there to help you through it all.(stumbled across it outside the toilet after bathing, that;s why, God is good.JINGYING<3
♥ Love from above;
